ie's little journal

uhm..
ntah knp..rasanya livejournal dan sgala isinya terlalu hitech bagiku..
jd ak mmutuskan pindah ke http://whitesilva.wordpress.com
yahh..silahkan lihat2 di sana..hwhw..tq all^^

halo semua..
senang rasanya bisa kembali menyentuh blog yang sudah lama tak terupdate ini.
yak..maafkan saya yg jrg membuka blog ketika myntuh internet..
hehe..
lgsg aja ke hal2 yg ign saya tulis..

--Friends' Blog
Belakangan saya mendapati orang-orang rajin menulis blog..sebut saja icin, tj, julian, edwin, dan yang paling baru vicot..wew..
Rata-rata mereka memakai blog untuk sedikit curhat,bercanda, mengutarakan pikiran, atau katakanlah berfilosofi.
Alangkah sbenarnya saya begitu hendak mengikuti jejak mereka.. *si terbiasa mengekor*
Namun ntah knp blkgan puisi saja tak ada yg tercipta..uhuhu
yah.. mengenai isi dari blog mereka semua, saya salut..
jujur saya merasa tulisan-tulisan mereka begitu menarik, tidak seperti saya..uhuuk
ada yang perbendaharaan katanya mantap sekali, ada yang gemar bercanda, ada yang diam-diam berbakat filsafat..
aa.. mgkn ketika mood saya memenuhi, saya akan mengikuti jejak mereka..
haha..semoga yaa

--UUB
Gyaa...uub tinggal 2 hari lagi..*panik luar biasa*
yah..sebenarnya tidak cocok jika saya baru panik skg si..ahaha..secara saya sdh paham benar pentingnya uub-yang-tidak-ada-remednya ini bagi kelangsungan hidup saya di bumi tanjung duren..uhuhuhuhu
ADUHHHH..
kenapa ya saya begitu malas dan tak termotivasi hingga nilai2 pelajaran tertentu amat mengkhawatirkan..
sebutlah kimia, yang nilai ulum saia minimal 80..uhu
atau jg jerman..kejadiannya sama..
pdhal..
ketika saya disuru hanya mempelajari pelajarannya, saya bgtu suka..
akh.. tp ntah knp jika menghadapi ulangan, saya cenderung tidak dapat diandalkan..
aaaaa...smoga kita semua bisa melewati uub dgn baik!
cia yoooooo~~~

--karwit
yup..karwit alias karyawisata..
acara 3 hari penuh canda tawa..
ahaha..sayang skali saat ini saya tak akan bisa byk bercerita..
karna uub yang sudah di depan mata..
aaa..
smoga cepat bisa saya cerita yaa...
hahaha..

sekian dlo de..

~ierem~

ahoi everybody~
well, I know that yesterday I was kinda weird..ahaha..
nothing special actually, just some pessimistic-over-thinking done by a handsome guy(LoL)..
so..
actually I just want to tell about how I got back to my senses..
aha..
last night..around 12 or so..
after posting and feeling like I'm nothing in this world..
I end up feeling a little better, but again I made something stupid and worsen my already-better-mood..
then, suddenly I send a message to a girl..
and then this girl replied..
it's just like:*translated*
"hm..ca?"
"hm?"
"oh..u'r awake.."
"hm..what's wrong, jer?"
"no, nothing"
*beep-beep*
..and then she called me for about 2 hours(sigh, can't be deceived that easily.haha)..and would only stop the call and go to sleep if I promise to be well by the morning..ahaha..
then after I promised, she just sent another quite the reminding message :
"remember, u must already be well!"
ahaha..made me quite cheered up..i'm thankful 4 that~

but, actually the thing made me be myself again is the realization that He is still there, beside me, waiting for me to come to Him, ask for his forgiveness, give all my heart and start a new life, like what He always wants me to do..
and after I did those things, I just felt... forgiven..
it was very relaxing and made my spirit high again~
yey~

aaa..I'm really grateful to Him, my Jesus..
nothing can ever replace Him..
the wonders and everything about Him is just so awesome..
if it's not for Him, maybe I already end up being some mindless meat and bones..haha

so.. what I want to tell is, should anything happen to your life, don't give up and never focus on the problem only by your own view..
just ask Him for answers, then let Him show and guide you to His way..I believe you'll never be lost..
"He is one to be trusted"

phew..
don't know what to say..
between that last post and now, my days have been even worse.
today i took my mid-report.
only to find out i got better score by mistake.
argh..
and then there's this problem at church.
i feel i'm left behind even more now..
and back at home my dad talked about my score, how it would affect my future, how i must set priority and time management stuff..well it's kinda too late to change those stuff i think..
hh..
really..
wanna let it end..
i'm the one causing the torment.
so, i'm the one that suffer the most.

now i have to think about school stuff,
and also church stuff,
and also college stuff..
when i still haven't got my soul back..
i don't know what to do now..
the will to do stupid things and end it all is growing somewhere in my mind..
i know what to do..
but something make me don't want to do it..

gra...
why there's no one when i need just anyone..?

it's darkening..
though outside the sunrays fill the whole place brightly,
but it's dark..
no, not the room..
a smaller thing in that room..
the thing that's located below my ribs..
for here i am, alone..

really.. i found the whole week extra hectic and depressing..
idk what to say.. i.. well.. i'd been thinking if i would make it to a good university or not..
and i'd been compiled with bad marks on the thinking..
so.. i ended up even don't know how to save my semester report.
sigh.. the past sure have made me quite the loser..
haha..
argh..so sick..

phew..
guess after all, i just need to study harder and pray..
wew

phew..
where to start, eh?

well i guess it's time to post something again after the long pause..
why do i write this in english, u wonder?
well, it's just a coincidence when i browsed into a friend of mine's blog and (phew) i found that his english used in the blog was sophisticated..so i think i need to start practicing my english here rather than using indonesian..LoL
okay..now..what to say..

ah..so it's seems that..i mean.. i'm actually in the middle of a holiday. It's Lebaran holiday which only happens in some lucky countries~
hh..
During this holiday I find myself slacking off when others have started applying or at least preparing their appliances for their dream-university. GRA. Well, I can't seem to make myself in condition to do that, because even in the mean time I still can't achieve good score at my school stuff. I know it's shameful and sounds pathetic, but these days I just can't get the right mood to do the right thing (studying), instead I find myself doing the less-right-thing (like playing) more often (by A LOT..argh). Plus, I still don't know which university or what faculty I aim to be at. Hh. I know I need to change this weirdness soon, but I just can't in the moment. I really don't know what to do or what to do to make me know. LoL. Can anyone help me please?

Well, now that I think of it, I used to be quite the smart and dilligent person. Back then I usually enjoyed my holiday without being disturbed by any of the school stuff as I usually had them done before the holiday begun. Ah, really good old days. If only I could turn back those memorable times. But, I know it's just something that I say when I want to be a loser. I definitely don't want that to happen. So, I need to act, and act fast! I need to clean my mind up from all kinds of things that'll only make me be worse. But the question is, how?

I don't know why, though it's kinda funny, but I feel that by writing this kind of posting, it will help me to be who I really am. It will help me to achieve a balance in my mind, whatever it is. ... Well, yeah, it's just some weirdness of me, just forget it. But I really hope that I'd be better when I wake up tomorrow, to start the day and be a better man..=)
pray for me guys..haha..tq

yo..
halo semua..
ah..ini pertama kalinya aku membuat postingan dengan bahasa indo..yeah
baikla..
pertama-tama saya akan bercerita tentang hari2 yang sudah lalu..
hmm..coba saya ingat2..
ah..
pd tanggal 10-12 juni lalu, (wkk..skg da agustus lg..maafla ga dpet timing buat nulis)
saya dan teman sekelas (XIA2-alias XIAutic2) berangkat ke Lembang-Bandung..
Yup, kami berangkat dalam rangka perpisahan..haaa..sudah setahun kami bersama dan tibalah saat berpisah..huhu..tp gapapa! karna perpisahan ini toh ga akan berlangsung selamanya..
seperti halnya saia dgn teman sd, kami masi bisa kontak2an dan bertemu..hwhwhw..
..
er..maap jd oot..
back to topic..
jadi, kami semua berkumpul di sekolah tanggal 10 pagi..
janjinya si pada kumpul jam 7..tapi dasar anak jakarta dalam liburan, tidak bisa menahan godaan untuk ngaret..
hwhw..lucunya, di sekolah kami bertemu dgn bbrp rombongan lainnya..
mreka adalah klas xia4 dan xis1..kebetulan mereka jg mengadakan acara nginep2 untuk 3 hari 2 malam..
tp tempatnya berbeda2 sih..
ah..sbntar..rasanya agag tidak nyaman jika saia menggunakan bahasa yang terlalu dibuat agak terlihat formal (wakakak..sulit dibaca mksdnya)..jadi..mohon izin anda2 agar saia boleh menyingkat dan menggunakan bahasa sms shari2..hehe..tq b4

okei.back lg..
qta mulai brangkat skitar jem 8 dengan bus ijo berkapasitas 20 org yg dikendarai oleh seorang supir berusia 40an yang ganteng dan macho..wakakaka..ga sampe gitu sih..
anyway..perjalanan berlangsung ckup menyenangkan..
aming dkk sudah mulai membuka deck kartu dan maen capsa..ckckck..mreka tdak sabar skali..ahha
smntara yg laen sibuk ngbrol dan bercanda gurau..
hmm..saia sndiri duduk di sblah cs..nanana..
lalu saia memutar lagu dr hp..menggunakan headset..syung2..lupa ngapain lg..hwhw
yah..intinya tengah2 perjalanan ada jg yg tidur2an..ada yg mo ke wc terus (thea..siapa lg..wakakk), ada yg hboh sndiri(stephen, ramon, vicot..awkakaka..active boy!)

kami pergi ke sari ater, lembang, sbuah tempat yang penuh dengan mata air panas..
ya..panas..
graa
kselnya di sini saia bersama dengan aming wanda dan peter terpaksa bolak balik karna ketika masuk ptama kali kami mengenakan clana panjang.. (serta spatu bagi saia)..
dan berminat berganti dlu..
tp gagal krn bus terkunci dan pak supir hilang ntah ke mana..
huhu..
satu hal, panasnya mnygarkan! hwhw..
stlah puas maen2 kano dan prahu berpedal serta merendam kaki, kami pun kmbali ke bus..

perjalanan dr lembang mnju bandung pun dimulai..
yak..singkat cerita, akhirnya kita nyampe ke hotelnya..
de' Tropis..sbuah hotel kecil dengan skitar blasan kamar sajah yang terletak di..er..di mana ya it? wkwkwk..
pkoknya suasana di sana adem, damai, pnuh minuman gratis dan mngundang kebersamaan..
hwhw.. kita2 mandi bergantian dan stlah mc memasang ps diadakanlah tourney we kcil2an..yeah..

stlah smuanya slese mandi dan terakomodasi dgn shat dan damai, kami memutuskan keluar untuk mencari makan..
spanjang perjalanan saia duduk di sblah peter yang mengajarkan dasar2 igo dan bercerita ttg fate stay...hwhw..
lalu.. kami makan bersama2.. walau terpecah2..
akhirnya saia memakan pizza bersama mreka..
hahah..

ehm..
spulang dari sana..
kami rasanya mlanjutkan we..
saia si berpindah- pindah antara kamar yg 1 dan yg lain dan area makan, antara ngbrol, maen we, igo, capsa, cepe, dan ntn bola..hwhw..
malamnya smua tpar dgn damai..
ya..tidak smua si.. myisakan saia dan aming.. maen we ampe malem2 dan myiksa mata saia yg strabismus (ketidakmampuan otot2 kedua mata untuk berkoordinasi sehingga menghasilkan kegandaan vision pd suatu objek)..
GRA..
akhirnya saia tidur ketika yg laen sudah terbangun..T_T

hmm..esoknya.. kami jalan sharian ke suatu danau, stlah smpat menepis keinginan ke fo dr bbrp wanita (thea lagi..hwhw) dan mengisi perut kami..
danaunya sunggu indah, perjalanan yg agag lama ke sana terbayar jg..
di sana..aming terkurung di wc..HWHWHW...si cupu itu..wkwk..
salah!
di sana kami menyewa 2 prahu..
saia berperahu bersama juan, wanda, ramon, stephen, vicot, peter, missy, vania..wkwk..
kami berautis ria di danau itu.. blajar berkooperasi dan menggoda dito dan lydia di prahu satunya..wkwk

tanpa sadar hari sdh sore ktika kami memutuskan utk kembali..
lalu kami memutuskan makan dlu sblm balik ke hotel..
kami makan di sbuah resto di sbuah bukit yg memiliki pemandangan ke ara malam kota bandung (lupa lg namanya)..
ah..indah, tp dingin..
hwhw..di sana kami smpat berkomentar mgnai org bule yg mbri speech kpd sklompok org berpakaian formal di meja panjang..
gyaa..harga makanannya sih spadan dgn rasanya..hehe
dalam perjalanan plg kami mbli bbrp minuman keras yg akan mjadi tman nanti malam..

pulang2..rutinitas berlanjut..
ada yg ntn dvd pinjeman dsb..ada yg maen we lg
yg pasti, meski malam itu ranjang available, saia tidak dapat tidur..
alasan2 terjadinya hal dmikian adalah:
1.aming..ktnya maw ngajak tanding we lg..(oo iy, btw aming tidak jago dalam we waktu itu..hehe..jadi saia ckup snang~
tp akhirnya dy tidur dluan..graa
2.bir..saia ternyata makhluk tidak tahan bir..
3.dito..dia memaksa saia mnmani dy we smalaman..

hwhw..tanpa sadar tiba2 sudah tinggal hari trakir..
stlah mnikmati sarapan di hotel(yg saia lwatkan akibat jadwal bangun yg jauh terlambat dr org2)..
kami mempak barang2, ready utk check out..
berterima kasi kpd org2 di sana, berfoto, lalu..
kami lgsg berangkat bblanja..
haha..
smpat si stop by kartika sari buat bli oleh2, tapi..
slanjutnya..
sharian kami melihat2 baju, baju, baju..dan baju..wkwk..
lelah skali rasanya, dr pagi hingga sore, lalu dilanjutkan ke pvj sbntar..
hwhw.. di sana aming brong komik pulang..ada skitar 10..wew..
ah..
tanpa trasa kami sdh dalam prjalanan pulang..
wew..sunggu melelahkan(krn saia krg tidur sangat), tp mnynangkan(pastinya^^)..
sbuah memori yg manis, teman2..hwhw..
(buktinya masi igt agag detail sampe skg)
tq yaaa teman2 smua..
smoga kita bisa gini lg kapan2..
huff..cape..
da sgini dulu d..crita yg laen jd malas..byaaaaaaaakk..wkwkwk
cya then

well..
here i am to update my blog..
dunno why i'm here this late though..
hmm..the computer's clock is showing 1:23 A.M. whew..that's my birthday number there!
hwhw..
anyway..i'm here to tell u guys that i'll be posting in indonesian language from the next post..
no particular reason, it's just i feel more comfortable expressing myself in my mother tongue..
nananana..
okei..till next post~!

Hei...guys!
Long time no post..
Yea2..in some cases i'm jez busy..or lazy..
But, at least i still rmember 2 post..=)
Allrite..here's a quick review of my past act:
-03.08~went 2 a party single, went home taken..haha
-got my mid-report..making promises to be better..but i failed..
-04.08~a month already..=)
-went to some bdae parties, failing to get better score..
-05.08~2 months..yeah..
Hmm..i forget the rest..hw3..
Ok2, in the future i will directly post frm my phone..
So..be patient guys..
O yea, i finished my final exam todae!
I made it through the hardest..
Yea..
Hope u guys did the same..
Cya~
Hppy holidae

well..hi there
been long time since i last post sth..
well..the reason is between i'm too lazy, it's been hectic these days, and those interesting video games..=)

so... what should I write then?
well..about this week..we've got a day which is celebrated all over the over the world...
yup..the valentine's day~
happy valentine's day to u all..
hehe...
so...at last thursday, there was sth like coloful day at my school..
it's like a day when we, the student, don't wear uniforms and..well..study like the usual..graaa..
but...during the lunchtime, there was a kind of event from the student council...
so..
they gathered the students at the canteen, where cressendo, the school official band performed some mellow-love songs..
they also made some unique games and sold some donuts from the promnite and yearbook committee..
well..it was..a nice day..if only there hadn't been two TEST at the day and it hadn't been a hectic week..which result in the lack of people preparing chocolate for me...aaaaaa....(too confident in myself, huh?)
phew...i guess that's all i wanna tell..
yea..
gotta study more...graaa

cya then..